Photo by Kira auf der Heide on Unsplash I spent hours in the gym working out building muscle. I weighed 95 kilos. Loads of people commented on how big I had become, I cut an impressive figure to some. I was incredibly strong. Yet when I looked in the mirror I saw myself as thin … Continue reading Body Dysmorphia And Me: What You Need To Know
So why am I telling you this? I suppose the point of this article is to actually encourage you lovely readers to check out the body acceptance movement. On the whole it is wonderful, and while it doesn’t help me to accept my body, that is because of deep seated issues that I have to work through myself, and not the fault of the movement. There are many body acceptance accounts that share wonderful content and it is always refreshing to see unedited images. You may not gain the confidence to dance on the internet in your pants, but normalising diverse body shapes can’t be a bad thing right?
When I look in the mirror I see someone different for a while and it feels like taking a break from myself. The same situation can manifest with piercings, tattoos, hair dye, whole new wardrobes, rearranging furniture, painting your house from top to bottom
When someone outside of our brains, outside of the people who have close personal relationships with us recognises us with ease, it bursts the complacent BDD bubble. It is a jarring back to reality that our bodies and faces don’t morph and change regularly, that we do look a certain way all the time. And there is a twinge of fear at the back of our minds because we don’t know what that certain look is. We don’t know what we look like, but this person does, and we will never know what they see, what strangers see. It is extremely depersonalising to be unable to comprehend how we are perceived by others. How do you recognise me when I can’t recognise myself? And how is it fair that you know my face better than I do?